I actually forgot…at least for a little while
Well, today I’m 6dpo. 7th cycle of Clomid. I’m afraid to hope.
My temps have been high – my chart is beautiful… and yet I’m terrified to let even one ounce of hope sneak into my thoughts.
DH asked me this morning “How long until you know if you’re pregnant??” He’s so hopeful… I don’t know how he stays like that after all we’ve been through. I know… we’ve endured a LOT of crap the last 2 years (*cough* braintumor *cough*)
But after this long, I’m not sure I am even capable of hoping for the best anymore… sad, isn’t it?
The good news is though, I haven’t been obsessing over every little twinge, every temperature, every “sign”…. I’ve been keeping busy and trying not to think of it. I’ve become so good at not thinking of it, that I actually forgot about it for TWO WHOLE DAYS…. amazing, right? 
DSD is coming on Saturday for 2 weeks… that should keep me busy. Or it could bring me back into my obsession (after all, what better way to remind me that I want to be pregnant than having my Step Daughter here??). I’m looking forward to her visit though…she just turned 3!!
Well…back to my boring work day.
Three-year old are definitely great … That’s when they develop a really good verbal sense of humor … but, then again, girls develop differently when it comes to communication skills … Oh, well, I know you’ll have fun … You seem to be really good at being the “other mommy”, if that makes sense … (I’ll just say this: you’re gonna be a great mommy!)
I think you’re doing great otherwise, too … Although you know I don’t know ANYTHING about that charting “stuff.” I’ve been wondering though, and wanting to ask you a (dumb) question … What are crosshairs? I researched the ‘net, but didn’t find anything relevant … *sigh*
Much Peace,
Brooke
Brooke, see my comment under the post “crosshairs…yay!” — someone else asked and I explained it there.
How odd that you wrote this post yesterday, when I wrote a post about hope (or the lack therof) in my blog yesterday.
It sounds like you’re having some good signs; I will be *hoping* that this is good news for you!
Just keep the hope, sweetie. Good luck!!