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2007 November 25
Oh dear lord…. my temp fell this morning.
I really don’t think I can handle another round of clomid. I’m thisclose to having a panic attack. Ugh. I friggin hate TTC. I don’t want to finally admit that I’ll never have children. That will make me horribly bitter (more so than I am now).
I really don’t know much about your history, with TTC, but I wish I did because you seem to be healthy, so I don’t understand why “this” is happening. I probably won’t post anymore after this because I’m unsure if my message(s) is helpful, yucky, blucky, or positive.
Anyway, I don’t put much into temping, but that’s just not what I do. I look, listen, and feel, literally, what’s going on with my body. All of my tests are fine, so, with me, it’s only a matter of time. My first born, the love of my life, one of the nicest people I know, and exactly (how I always put this) what I ordered, took us three cycles to conceive. (I ordered a little boy, healthy, happy, smart, left-handed, la, la, la, with blond hair, and dimples, and that’s what I got! My God is always good to me, phew!) I apologize if you have a different spiritual path, and I mean no condemnation by it.
Unfortunately, due to some circumstances beyond our control, #2 could not be conceived in the time frame that I had originally wanted. So, here it is, years later, and I AM going to get that second baby! I think it took me three cycles the first time because (and I KNOW you’ve heard this one) I was stressing. I firmly believe that.
Anyway, good luck with this baby, and take good care of yourself…This your blog, I know. I didn’t mean to monopolize a huge portion on your comment space.
Always thinking of you…
ME
Brooke: thanks for your input. I do appreciate it and I hope you continue commenting.